I’ve never been one to have trouble sleeping. In fact, I have always had quite the opposite problem. Even in college, I’d be the first one ready to leave the party, ready to climb into my nice, warm bed and snuggle between the covers. I almost never actually see the Daily Show the first time it airs. I’m forever watching it on Tivo or the 8pm re-run the following day. I pretty consistently go to bed around 10 or 10:30pm, and it’s an accomplishment if I sleep past 8am on the weekends. Sure, I’ll wake up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, or when my hubby comes to bed (he’s very much a night owl), but I’m seldom awake for more than 5-10 minutes. I’m fairly well-rested by the time my alarm goes off around 6:15.
No more.
This week has been plain awful. I’d say four of the last six nights, I’ve gone to bed early, maybe 9pm. I’m very sleepy, no trouble at all falling asleep. Hubby comes to bed at 2 or 3am, as normal. I wake up, which normally maybe happens 50% of the time. Not anymore. Now I’m WIDE awake. I’m thinking about everything from the ultrasound to work to video games. I don’t feel especially anxious (though I’m sure that’s part of it), I’m just AWAKE. If I do doze off, it’s not for more than 30 minutes, and I usually have vivid, and sometimes disturbing, dreams. I’m finally sleepy again right when it’s time to wake up, get dressed, take the dog out. Lucky me.
According to Babycenter.com, the insomnia and the crazy dreams are all normal. In fact, it looks like I can blame it all on progesterone! Lucky me. But wait… does that mean it’s because of the medication I’m on, or is this a genuine pregnancy symptom? I’m so desperate for reassurance and confirmation that I relish anything that feels like a real indicator. But I’m frustrated when there’s always another possible reason. Maybe if I wasn’t on the Prometrium, I wouldn’t be feeling this at all? ARGH! Please let this ultrasound on Wednesday show me something definitive….
Hopefully I’ll be able to nap today…
